"Feeling Like I'm Stuck in the Wrong Movie: How to Redirect my Life"

I feel deeply inspired to share this today because I think since I moved away from the seaside my life feels like being in a constant wrong movie. It starts with the house I live in, the neighborhood and everything here. That doesn't mean it hasn't it's perks. 

It seems to be more culti than multi and there is a lack of variety and I don't see anywhere "my people". It 's all so far away, somewhat faded away in the past.

It's not super pet-friendly either, even though there are a lot of nice pet owners around. My pooch likes to scare off Asians in traditional clothing as they make these funny waves with their fabrics and bounce and scream in a very high pitch. the other day on a big leisure dog-friendly field there were 3 passing by and he barked only twice and they were freaking out and falling over each other. By that time he was back on a lead and he was 2 meters away. I mean I said sincerely sorry they did not take it greatly so we just left.

Luckily I heard some similar stories from other pawrents.

I am questioning if our society has changed even more and there is so much hate out there and it's not that I feel have I don't I mean I have my dark moments and they go away quickly.

It is and was an interesting journey of growing including growing pain, which is part of the process. I went to a couple of local meetings and even there I don't feel it. I mean a meeting is a meeting and is always good and the program works. I just can not connect anymore with anyone. cause I need to shed the hate showers I get here daily and need to protect myself and my energy.

I feel content nevertheless. I started a new art series and went wildly into it. I can not say much about it for the time being as I need to see where it goes. I just enjoy the ride.

I realized when I have too much going on and I am starting to feel drained at the expense of my creativity I need to slow down and embrace the emptiness within.

so I suggest

you'd better never give up. keep going.

no weapon formed against me that shall prosper

if God hired me who is going to fire me

you feel me. go for it. trust. what is meant to come my way/ your way is coming anyway.

all is one and so I feel responsible I clean

it's an empty vessel and go from there into the unknown.

I am sorry, please forgive me, I love You, Thank You.

Move on..... move in another district........... everything works out always well for me.........