Chagrin d'a fucking mour diggggaaaaaa

Actually there is something I need to share.

I mean everyone of us is different with different experiences and bs fuckeries which marked our way of life and had impacts and yeah there are those I mean common

you fall completely for the wrong person get mixed messages then hear them shagging

which also confused me.... I thought is this how English people shag?

and I had a few days later a discussion in a lovely sit in with some peeps. where about they said that in England they say the very same about Germans. it sounded so stiff and quick shallow orgasm ... it sounded very brief and so dull. eeeewwwww

Oh my.......

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_oXShVe8Gc

nevertheless it gave me the creep and I just felt the need to upchuck.

I know every rejection as hurtful they can be is a blessing in disguise cause then I could see much more clearly through and through even it broke my heart so fucking much.

I have zero tolerance for nastiness and stalking.

Why talk when you can stalk? right.

yeah

Anyway..... heartbroken as I was I was also facing the pure devil in persona as never ever in my life before. you feel me? the impersonation of a fallen angel, what that poor sausage is. I mean I wish that creep well. Tower moments they come they go

so I faced utterly harassment by the very same person I had nothing but pure unconditional love for him.

I get the crumbs, betray, lies, stalking, insults and intimidation. deliberately of pure enviousness. how evil

well long story short> I realized soon there are other substances involved, including,

while once looking innocently for some ibuprofen, I found a huge pack of Viagra in a kitchen cubboard.

what I learned there was even clearer and I got downloads from the spirits that everything will be revealed to me and it was. weekly. it just fell into my hands.

guys like that have no connection to their heart and they mix up lust with love and when it doesn't work out they get dig broken. boing

so much evidence so bloody much.

guess what there was a lodger who was a part of a set up and he had a detector and showed me that the complete property was bugged up with hidden microphones and cameras. that's mad.

imagine a few months earlier heart broken ////I was crying and screaming my soul out in my room just comforted by my pets and it was all recorded. what the fuck!!!!! and he must have enjoyed it. eeeewwwww. that's fucked up.

I mean that was shocking and I couldn't sleep the night through....

I was trapped by a pervert a sexual addicted pervert?????!!!! WHAT????

So these people approached me again and showed me evidence cause they had everything from his computers and I can not precisely describe what I felt it was just like I couldn't breathe

felt body aches and it was disgusting.

I found myself in a twisted thriller. wtf....

the house on top was observed because that creep must have build up some enemies over the years. oh dear.....

one afternoon.... a guy approaches me directly outside the property and claims to be the owner and asks me if I am alright and if I have somewhere to go and someone to talk to.

Bitte was.....

what the fuck is going on????? that was all so weird plus the things which fell literally into my lap without searching.

the other people from which I have mentioned earlier approached me a good week later and I still had to face that PERV. and digest that....

trust me I did not feel even the slightest comfortable anymore in the property

there was no bathroom which hasn't been bugged up. omg so fucking spooky.

I was told to get ready and have better everything packed and just trust

TRUST?????? no way

and another late afternoon the police is there at the door, asking for me, telling me:

someone has contacted them on my behalf deeply concerned for my safety and this guy is there too and follows the police officers and me

WHAT.... I mean WHAT....

very uncomfortable not helpful at all.

I did not know what to say and left them and just said: "well thanks very much for your help but you actually do not help here.... bless you", and marched off into my house.

2 hours later I receive a call from a to me unknown number and pick it up and yeah get the offer for a lift.

So I was not thinking long and just said: "cool yeah let's do it. see you tomorrow".

and we drove up north.

The north note it is.

I mean hey a few days ago I had the opportunity to see Wales and it's beauty

definitely a different climate more up north// north west....

I am a temporary country egg

shalom may we be protected by the spirits.

no weapon formed against me that shall prosper.

diving deep into dharma

bless my karma / lessons learned. thank you xoxo